Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Small Triumphs

I figure it is always a pretty good day when I don't stay in bed all day curled up under the covers. It is always a temptation.

Today I got up and stayed up.
Today I listened to scripture discussions.
Today I prepared and ate meals.
Today I worked on quilts, both to keep and to give away.
Today I was kind to family members.
Today I felt the love of my Savior for me personally, in spite of my flaws.

I also felt like crying all day. I felt terrible guilt, which I know was unwarranted but I could not assuage. I was very anxious and jumpy. I had to give myself pep-talks all day about how I do matter to others. I stayed in my house, afraid to meet up with any people.

But it was a pretty good day all in all--for me.

2 comments:

Kelli said...

I know HF loves you, I know you matter to those around you. Because you matter to me and we dont see each other often. Stay strong. Love you!

Emily A. said...

Sorry you feel like crying all day. I didn't know you felt that way. I remember feeling like nobody would care if I was dead or alive. Its always a lie, but it sure is hard to believe that when your feeling it.